I'm living up to these expectations I hope
I been out tryna get a real job I don't wanna sell dope
I been making so many misty clouds think I'm becoming a ghost
And I don't really wanna die young but these late nights I get close
I got two hunnid in my bank account I know that I'm gonna blow
And I'm all alone in a big jacket, I got no hood in the snow
And I act like I got big racks but ramen my only dough
And I act like I got good grades I don't know where I gon' go
Man I'm scared
My mom gon' yell at me id tell Aviv but she won't care
I might just fly away to Tel Aviv and hide out there
My opps are after me can't tell Aviv cause she not there
My boys are next to me still feel alone they getting rare
I'm paranoid cant walk around the mall without the glares
I'm on the edge I double check the corners at the square
My real fight at home when I'm upstairs and on my chair
Procrastination get the best of me I need a prayer
I been wasting time and wasting cash inside my lair
And I'm not good enough for myself that's why no ones there
I'm skeptical of haircuts that's why I grow out my hair
Cause I don't trust no people when I do I just get scared
And I been up so late it's hard for me to go up stairs
Can't touch no bitch cause it gon' end up being an affair
Can't love no one can't get too close they leave out of nowhere
And I'm the only one whos here for me and that is fair
Zaiden
It's been an hour since you've responded to me
So... don't act like you're busy and snap me back
Thank you! Mwah!
I'm living up to these expectations I hope
I been out tryna get a real job I don't wanna sell dope
I been making so many misty clouds think I'm becoming a ghost
And I don't really wanna die young but these late nights I get close
I got two hunnid in my bank account I know that I'm gonna blow
I'm all alone in a big jacket, I got no hood in the snow
And I act like I got big racks but ramen my only dough
And I act like I got good grades I don't know where I gon' go