Lyrics
(Yeah) Weatherin' the storms where I got one eye on the clock
The other on a mission where I hustle through the block
One too many failures make a pessimist drop
Staying optimistic but realistically, I cannot
Burst this bubble yet I’m feeling locked up in a box
Took a step outside my comfort zone but I was caught
By anxiety and all the stresses so I thought
If I close my eyes that it might stop
The nightmare goes on when the doctor told my family
Your son may have a cardiac abnormality called cardiomyopathy
The reading shows a bundle branch block
If he’s lucky give him 10 year for his heart to rot
What was the kid in me suppose to do
How do I react, will I ever go to school
A decade later and the heart in me still beating strong
5 years on and I’m stilling proving all them doctors wrong
Hi, my name’s anxiety a pleasure nice to meet ya
In your darkest times is where I’ll greet ya
Even in your happy days I’ll come around and feature
My class is now in session, you’re the student I’m the teacher
And I’ll teach you everything that you don’t wanna know
You can’t face a crowd no more so better stay at home
Overthinking thinking that your living in a hole
Cause your heart is sinking to rock bottom down below
Depression kicking in so now your feeling kinda low
The stress suppresses all emotions now you’ve lost control
You were born a lonely child destined to be alone
Wish you had a honey but no ones buzzing the phone
You were craving love but now your appetite is empty
Trouble sleeping all the tension made your eye bags heavy
The conversations in my head can become very messy
Because I was scared to take the world on but now I feel ready
So don't tempt me
Doctor doctor please can you take pain away
I’ve been hurting taking days off not for holidays
I’ve been feeling really stressed cause now my job don’t pay
Was afraid of death now you can catch me counting days
I didn’t wanna say it but that’s just the way it is
My mental health deteriorated my purpose to live
A constant battle in my head now every day’s quiz like
Why you acting bitter homie, why you such a bitch
Why you tryna flex on me like you ain’t even rich
Why you wear a shirt like that when you ain’t even ripped
How you think you’re useful when the world wants you to quit
I thought I was onto something, someone flipped the switched
Someone is to blame for this, someone living in bliss
Insecurities piled up I swear I made a list
I was always blaming someone for the life I dread
Till I realized it was all in my head
Breana Marin, Rafeh Kayani
O/B/O DistroKid